BUS EXP. The love from within

October 25.

Past 9:30 in the evening, sitting in a bus. It is exactly the place where I wanna be right at this moment. Sitting comfortably and forget the world, forget everything but having a safe way home. Well everybody is safe when Allah is in your humble heart. :) See I've got this good and awesome mood right now.

I don't know what gets me so happy and excited to ride a bus during night time. Hmm maybe it's about the dim surroundings; the street lights in motion; the shadows on the street. I don't really know what's in there but it's full of happiness and it's very relaxing.

Story of my life.

I haven't been good for anything aside from being so attached with anyone. I don't exactly know why I care so much about someone. As if someone's gonna care back. Well i could care less. Really. But that's not how it is gonna work forever. I am human. I feel all this sadness and loneliness. And I do try to be happier than i should. I have good friends around, and Alhamdulillah for that. There are actually lots of blessings that is given to us from Allah. I know there are a lot but we tend to forget these little blessings that Allah is showering through us. We are human. We tend to forget. We lose. But at least, in our 86,400 seconds given to us in each day, we offer hundred seconds to thank God for everything. Blessings are countless. In simplest way, we should be reminded of the reasons we have all these blessing. We should keep in our heart that Allah is the reason for everything! Allah make things happen. Allah is the only God, He is the Greatest! He is the Most Powerful! I just want to thank Allah, Thank You Oh Allah!

Blessings. This made me write an impromptu post for today! I don't get much of inspiration to say something but I will anyway. I want to thank Allah and I want to ask for Allah's guidance and help at the same time. I want to thank Allah for giving the most amazing parents in the world. I know I am not the perfect second daughter they asked from Allah but they accepted my flaws, my weakness, me. They love the negative side of me, that even myself can't accept that I am such this "bad" childish poor little girl. It's hard to accept the real you when it is not what you expected you would be. And its rather hard to change yourself when you got to lose everything. Lol i dont think i make any sense at all. Anyway, I never been a fake in my whole life. That's the point... AND I AM NOT supposed to talk something about myself cause this post is especially dedicated to thank Allah and to ask for His Guidance and Help. My mother, the most understanding, lovable, helpful woman in the whole world, is having her angiogram operation today. Right now! It 10:15am. The operation time is 10am. Who knows, my Mom might be in operation room right now.

An hour before the operation, my mom phoned me. I went out. It's very rare cases when my mom calls. So I went out and talk about her situation. She called just to let me know that she's gonna have operation today. And we talked about the expenses, but I don't really care how much it will cost. I may not have that much but that's not really the case right now. And then my mom started to talk to me about college. I really should try harder to graduate this November 14. She will also do the same so that they will be home and attend my graduation day! I really don't care about that as of the moment. What I wanted is for my Mom and Dad to feel better and healthy. I want them to feel the happiness even in simple way of living we have. They are my life, and that will never change! InshaaAllah

I don’t know how I should greet you. I’ve been away for two years. Two years of not talking to you. Well you can’t blame me. But don’t worry; I am visiting you when I got time. And you know things are kind of different right because I had real tough semesters in college. And what’s left now is polishing the thesis for hardbound, training where I am right now and got nothing to do, and finally there’s a subject that I need to settle yet. It’s algorithms, I got incomplete rating and honestly, I am sort of afraid if I won’t make it this semester then I will be converted to failed which means I can’t graduate this semester. But I will try my best to graduate this semester. This will be my parents’ dream, and one of my greatest dreams. After all the hardships that I’ve been through, I believe I deserve to graduate this semester, I hope Allah will let me. InshaaAllah Ameen. So as I was saying, I really don’t know how to face you right now because of being away for long. But I really do hope you did great and you are doing fine. I hope you are stronger than you were.So hey, it’s me and I’m back. Happy. I’m in WebX, ICI Diocesan Centrum, Iligan City right now. It’s where I am having the second part of my OJT (on-job-training). The first part was at Sutherland Global Services, Davao City but that’s a different story. Hehe! So this what makes me want to write something to you right now. Aside from I’ve got nothing to do, I feel a little bad because our supervisor doesn’t look happy today. He looked worried which affects me too because I feel like his expression sets the temperature inside this room. Literally speaking, I am freezing! And hey, I guess sir supervisor is okay now. Heheh keep the big smiles y’all. It’s no biggie, I guess he’s just tired or something. Hehehe. Now let’s drop that thing and talk about love. Hahaha I feel so blessed to have friends that surround me. I really am so blessed to have understanding and supportive parents, considerate siblings. I am blessed to have you, for listening and telling me that I am special. I never felt much love as much as you showed me. Even if I don’t know how I am going to payback of what you did, I just hope that you know that I will love you always and forever. Thanks for inspiring me! Estoryahe. I don’t exactly know what I am mumbling right now. See yah then. Thankful, h.

I AM TAPED! XXD.

MarryYourDaughter-Syndrome

1st Verse:

  A                   E
Sir I'm a bit nervous about being here today,

 F#m                  D
Still not quite sure what I'm going to say.

 A                         E                      F#m     D
So bare with me please if I take up too much of your time.

 A                E
See in this box is a ring for your oldest,

    F#m                 D
She's my everything and all that I know is,

 A                           E                          F#m
It would be such a relief if I knew we were on the same side.

 D                           E
'Cuz very soon I'm hoping that I,

Chorus:
                  A
Can marry your daughter,

                  E
And make her my wife.

              F#m                    D                     A
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life,

                E                              F#m   D...
And give her the best of me till the day that I die.

                    A                         E
I'm gonna marry your princess and make her my queen.

                    F#m                            D
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen.

                A
I can't wait to smile,

                        E
When she walks down the aisle,

                  F#m
On the arm of her father,

       D                     A              E F#m D
On the day that I marry your daughter.


2nd Verse:

  A                               E
She's been here every step since the day that we met.

             F#m                                 D
Scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left.

 A                       E                 F#m          D
So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad.

        A                      E
I've got most of the vows done so far.

                 F#m                      D
So bring on the better or worst, and till death do us part

          A
There's no doubt in my mind

E                     F#m
It's time I'm ready to start.

 D                            E...
I swear to you with all of my heart,


Chorus:
                  A
Can marry your daughter,

                  E
And make her my wife.

              F#m                    D                        A
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life,

                E                              F#m   D...
And give her the best of me till the day that I die.

                    A                         E
I'm gonna marry your princess and make her my queen.

                    F#m                            D
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen.

                A
I can't wait to smile,

                        E
When she walks down the aisle,

                  F#m
On the arm of her father,

       D                     A           
On the day that I marry your daughter.

Bridge:
                      E           F#m               D...
The first time I saw her I swear I knew that I'd say I do.


Chorus:
                  A
Can marry your daughter,

                  E
And make her my wife.

              F#m                    D                        A
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life,

                E                              F#m   D...
And give her the best of me till the day that I die.

                    A                         E
I'm gonna marry your princess and make her my queen.

                    F#m                            D
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen.

                A
I can't wait to smile,

                        E
When she walks down the aisle,

                  F#m
On the arm of her father,

   D 

On the day that I

A

MARRY YOUR DAUGHTER.

♥

Let Me Be The One (JimmyBondoc)

I don't why I keep on playing this song.

So I ended up searching for it's tab and playing it.

How could they write this song?

Yea know its so damn good. Well I hope

you like it too.

Cheers! 

INTRO:                                              

E--------12-12-12------7-9-9--------7-9-9-----7-9------------------|
B--10-------------10/---------10-----------10----------------------|
G-----9----------------6---------9--6------------------------------|
D--------12--------------------------------------------------------|
A------------------------------------------------------------------|
E------------------------------------------------------------------|
          ^
E--------12-12-12------7-9-9-----------------4-----------------------|
B--10-------------10/---------10/5-----------5-----------------------|
G-----9-----------------------------9--7-----4-----------------------|
D--------12----------------------------------6-----------------------|
A--------------------------------------------7-----------------------|
E--------------------------------------------------------------------|


E--------------------------------------------------------------------|
B----------2-------------2------5-----------2------------2-----------|
G--2---2/4---4---2---2/4---4-2--2---2---2/4---4--2---2/4---4---------|
D--2-2-----------2-2----------------2-2----------2-2-----------------|
A--------------------------------------------------------------------|
E--------------------------------------------------------------------|

VERSE: 1
E----------------------------------------------tap-------------------|
B---2----------------------------3-----------2--------3--------------|
G---2----------------------------2--------2--2-----2-----------------|
D---2----------------------------0--------2--2-----0-----------------|
A--------------------------------------------------------------------|
E--------------------------------------------------------------------|
    somebody told me you were leavi'n    i dindn't know

E-------tap---------------------tap---------------------------------|
B------2------3------------5--5-------------------2-----------------|
G---2--2----2-----------------6---------2---2--4--------------------|
D---2--2----0-----------------6-------------------------------------|
A--------------------------4--4-------------------------------------|
E---------------------------------------2---------------------------|
    ^
E--------------------------------------------------------------------
B--------2-------0---------3----2------2-3--------------------------|
G------3-------2---------4------2----2------------------------------|
D----2-----------------4--------2-----------------------------------|
A--0---------4-------2----------0-----------------------------------|
E-------------------------------------------------------------------|

somebody told me you dont want me no more...ohhhh
so your walking out the door...

E--------2-----4-tap--------2-tap---------------------7---------------|
B------3----5--5--------3---3-------2-------------5---5---------------|
G----2---------6------------4-------2-pause----4------6---------------|
D--0-----------6------------4-------2-----------------5---------------|
A-----------4--4--------2---2-----------------7-------7---------------|
E-----------------------------------------------------5---------------|
no body told me youve been fell out of    so im setting you free
love with me


E--------2----------------------------------------------------|
B------3---3-------------5---------3--------2-----------------|
G----2-------2---------6---------4--------2-------------------|
D--0----------0------6---------4--------2---------------------|
A------------------4---------2--------0-----------------------|
E-------------------------------------------------------------|
let me be the one...


E--------2------------------------------------------------------|
B------3---3-------------5---------3--------2-------------------|
G----2-------2---------6---------4--------2---4-----------------|
D--0----------0------6---------4--------2-----------------------|
A------------------4---------2--------0-------------------------|
E---------------------------------------------------------------|
we dont nee to find a set up...

         ^
E--------2---2--------------------------------------------------|
B---3----------3---------------5/1---------2-------4------------|
G------2---2--------------6--------------2---2-----4------------|
D---0-------------------6----------------------4---4------------|
A---------------------4----------------------------2------------|
E------------------------------------2--------------------------|
we just have to say our love was true...    lie...


E---------2---------------0-----------------------------------|
B-----------3---------------2---------------------------------|
G------4------4--------2------2-------------------------------|
D----4---------4-----2----------2-----------------------------|
A--2---------------4------------------------------------------|
E-------------------------------------------------------------|
so im telling you i love you one last 


#1    intro 2
E--------------------------------------------------------------|
B--------3-----3-----3-----------------------------------------|
G------4-----4-----4-------------------------------------------|
D----4-----4-----4---------------------------------------------|
A--2-----------------------------------------------------------|
E--------------------------------------------------------------|
time... and good bye...


E--------12-12-12------7-9-9----------------4---------5-----------|
B--10-------------10/---------10/5----------5-----3/5---5/3-2-3---|
G-----9----------------6------------9--7----4---------------------|
D--------12---------------------------------6---------------------|
A-------------------------------------------7---------------------|
E-----------------------------------------------------------------|


#2 & bridge
E-----------------------0tap---tap-------tap---------------------|
B--------------------2--2----2-----2---7-----7-------------------|
G--4--------------------2----------------------------------------|
D--4--4--4--4-----------2----------------------------------------|
A--2--2--2--2--------2-------2-----2---5-----5-------------------|
E----------------------------------------------------------------|
time and good       bye


E-----tap---------tap-------tap-------tap----------tap----------|
B---5--------3--3---------3---------3------------5--------------|
G---------------2---------2---------2------------6--------------|
D---------------------4-4-------4-4--------------6--------------|
A---4--------2--------2-2-------2-2-------0-2-4--4--------------|
E---------------------------------------------------------------|
we dont have to live like this    if yo love me still...


          ^     ^
E-------------------------------------------------------------|
B------------------------------7-----3------------------------|
G-----2---------------------7--7-----6------------------------|
D-------------------------7----7-----6------------------------|
A-----------------------5------5-----4------------------------|
E-----2-------------------------------------------------------|
-
then stay  dont keep waiti'n...


E---------------2---------------4---------------------------|
B-----------------2---------------5-------------------------|
G------------2------2--------6------6-----------------------|
D----------4----------4----6----------6---------------------|
A------------------------4----------------------------------|
E--------2--------------------------------------------------|
we could work....


E----------5-----------------------------------------------|
B-----------------7-----5----------------------------------|
G-------7--------------------------------------------------|
D-----7----------------------------------------------------|
A---5-------------------4----------------------------------|
E----------------------------------------------------------|
we can work through it apart


E--------------3----------------2----------------------------|
B----------5--------5/1-----------2--------------------------|
G--------5-------------------2------2------------------------|
D------5-------------------4----------4----------------------|
A----3-------------------------------------------------------|
E-----------------------2------------------------------------|
i just need to get this off my chest


        ^  v ^  v ^  v ^ ^ ^   v ^
E--------2-------------------------------------------------|
B----------3-----------------------------------------------|
G-----4------4--------1--1-1--1-1--1-1-1-1---1-1-----------|
D---4----------4------2--2-2--2-2--2-2-2-2---2-2-----------|
A-2-------------------2--2-2--2-2--2-2-2-2---2-2-----------|
E---------------------0--0-0--0-0--0-0-0-0---0-0-----------|
that you will always have my heart... let me be the one...

repeat chorus:


ending:
E--------12--12--12------7--9--9--7--9----7--9-----------|
B--10---------------10/----------------10----------------|
G-----9------------------6--------6----------------------|
D--------12----------------------------------------------|
A--------------------------------------------------------|
E--------------------------------------------------------|

plucking til end.

D-C#m-B#m-A-D

(tabbed by demet)

i'm back--back to the other side of my life♥

Before everyone may notice, I chose to depart from them so it will not hurt a lot. While everyone's ahead on our way home, I'm with Yanjae and told her I have to go. I gave her the dvd films, hugged her and bid a goodbye. I don't wanna hear them saying goodbye. Their waves flashes our old memories--memories that made me "I AM". (Ottokhae? Why am I leaking?) So I ride the jeepney. I didn't look back. PERFECT TIMING! The music is so good! It's about L-O-V-E. Well I'm not in love with some other "guy" but the music means the friendship that we had. My heart ached so sudden, and I can't stop my tears from falling. I feel so BROKEN. Yes, I'm expecting for this and I'm prepared for it. This is just another dream-to-wake. I hate longing for my friends. But what can I do now?

ERRRRRRR! I'm always like this. Always NONESENSE.
But still, beyond everything that we had for few days, I felt like it was a year.
Thanks for everything! I can't enumerate "everything"...

...so, 'til the next chapter of our friendship!

XOXO,
choikang.

4thYrHS@Yunhosshi's

-A